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Avirjin ([personal profile] avirjin) wrote2016-08-14 04:04 pm

Fic: Intermission

Title: Intermission
Fandom: Exo
Focus: Suho-centric
Genre: Gen
Rating: G
Length: Drabble, 200 words
Summary: Junmyeon takes a short break.

Surprisingly, SM's rooftop is left unsecured. One would think that for all of the shattered hopes and dreams tiling its immaculate corridors, the company would be more cautious about that, but as long as Junmyeon's been a trainee, he hasn't heard of anything beyond small squabbles and lunch dates up here.

Regardless, that works out for him. The crowded practice rooms below are reeking of pessimism and sweat, and everyone he had bumped into on his way up had been testier than usual given the upcoming evaluations. They all needed some fresh air, though Junmyeon seems to be the only one to act on it.

He’s not surprised it’s already dark out after stepping out of the stairwell, the city lights already illuminating the skyline. Losing track of time is easy when the windows inside are covered by SM’s silly curtains and the only passage of time that matters to anyone is the length of a song. He takes in the late night chill, exhales as he turns his gaze up towards the empty, endless sky. The only stars in Seoul are in buildings like SM’s, Junmyeon remembers, his chest tightening in pure longing.

“Soon,” he tells himself. Promises himself.

Original Post: Here.
Prompt: To the Stars
Author's Note: Written for Round 2 of EM's EX'ACT Drabble Competition. I kinda wish I had reposted this a lot closer to when I first wrote it so my memories of what I was thinking would be fresher, but a lot has gone on since the competition back in June... I've been so busy lol. Hopefully I remember enough. I was actually really worried about this piece, because I thought it veered too closely to my first Suho introspection piece in Round 1 and that it would feel repetitive, but there's something about Suho's predebut experience that always draws me in? I always wonder how he felt during that time, because 5-6 years is a long time to feel uncertain and adrift... I'm kind of in the middle of something like that too which makes it sting a bit more haha. 

This was based off of one of Suho's interview answers from the EX'ACT albums, about how he would people-watch on rooftops and how it made him feel calm? He's mentioned it too when talking about scuba-diving in Fiji and entering such a vast ocean, and going to the Grand Canyon and seeing the massive view there. That such sights make him feel so small, that they make his worries seem smaller. And I think that's something that really does help him, considering how full of worries he can be. 

Other than that... I think I just really wanted to write a little about trainee life in SM, haha. I wanted to include as many references as I could from what I knew and what I've inferred, and there were a lot of lines in the last paragraph that I especially liked, like the star one. I remember faintly that I wanted to bring up that you can't really see stars in Seoul, so I was lucky to be able to make use of that. As for the title... I debated a lot on this -- you don't really title drabble submissions after all, haha -- but I decided to go with "Intermission" when I meant a "break" and Suho "getting some air". I didn't want to use "Get Some Air" despite it being a song title that sounds nice, but I did want that feeling... And while we know "break" is a temporary thing, the second meaning of it could've come into play which isn't something I wanted given its more permanent connotations. I didn't want to show Suho "breaking", I wanted to show him taking a moment for himself, reaffirming what he's doing and what he wants. "Intermission" worked a lot better in that aspect. Ha, so much thought into one word.